It's been a long time since I posted. I guess life gets busy and all the messy stuff you find out you need to deal with is not something others may want to read. I see all these pretty photos on FB and the kids that are doing amazing things and sometimes I wonder..what have I done wrong? Then it occurs to me that probably behind all of those beautiful photos were the same tears, frustrations and not so nice words that were shared before our family photos. When asked to do things with the family my 17 year's go to phrase is, "family time ALWAYS goes wrong." And you know what, he's right. At some point it does, not because we don't TRY to make it the best trip or experience. However,with six personality types, not to mention Aspergers and ADHD thrown it, it can go from sweet to saucy in a matter of minutes.
I remember when we were new parents, we were going to be the parents that limited TV time, our children were going to be involved in sports and exercise, eat healthy and by golly, if my child didn't eat what was put in front of them, there would be no other option. Well, I AM that mom who, by those standards, has done it ALL wrong. Lunch yesterday consisted of each of them making their own meals. One pizza. one corn dogs, one ate a sandwich and the other chose cereal. I was outside weeding the garden and they were inside on electronics. I have come to realize that I have great kids! I AM a great mom. God gave ne these children to raise and he knew I was right for them. So today I will let go of the Mom Guilt and enjoy the precious moments I share with each of them. I hope you too can let go of the guilt...we are in this together mamas.
